I was surprised when I read the next line of the workout. I hadn't even attempted a handstand since I was in grade school.
I wasn't really worried about it, but I also didn't consider that it would ever be something that #theTrainer would want me to work on.
And then I heard there was a goal.
We were to hold the handstand for twenty seconds... without touching our feet to the wall.
So this was not just...
This was a true test of BALANCE.
So... why not?
Needless to say, I did not achieve the twenty seconds.
Not the first, second, third... nor any of the times I attempted it last week. However, I was able to find my place near the wall and achieve a personal best of seven seconds. And while that may not sound like much to some, it was more than I knew I could handle before I walked into the gym.
So I have a new goal now... more than seven... but, shoot for twenty!
Does #theTrainer want me to do handstands everyday until I get there?
Actually, NO. That's not the way this type of total body training works. As I continue with my workouts, training my core will help my stability. And all the pushing and pulling movements of my upper body, will give me added strength to help me hold the handstand longer.
So we will just continue with training... wait a while...
and test it on some day in the future.
Most likely when #theTrainer hasn't announced it.
And that's what I love about #theTrainer...
all of the things I learn in my workouts, nutrition, and movement, apply so much to the rest of life as well.
We all need those days that we step aside, take a deep breath and do a mental handstand test of our life... to see if we are living in a balanced way. I mean, could my life take a turn upside down and still stay balanced? Have I considered things from a different perspective to see how strong... or weak I may be in certain areas of my life?
Or am I living my life in such a way that the slightest breeze... or even a brisk wind, would topple me if I'm not looking? Have I taken the time to strengthen the relationships around me... nurturing them with the love and affirmation they need so they know they are special. Am I exercising my faith... the very thing that keeps me upright and holding close to the One that can keep me if the storm comes?
And when I test it out, do my thoughts cause me to topple... have I let my life slip sideways... heavy handed to one side or another? Is it possible I've leaned toward too much time working, or too little attention with family? Or have I neglected a relationship that I keep meaning to connect... reminded of that someone on my mind, in my heart?
What if I'm able to hold it steady for everyone else... but at the end of the day, I crumple to the floor, wondering why I gave up on time for me? Have I stopped caring for my own health, my inner being, my outer wellness, and my habits... all for the sake of the busy pace of life?
When my handstand didn't measure up to the goal of twenty, I wasn't to hard on myself, because it had been a while since I even attempted it.
So why, when I test the strength and balance of my life do I feel so out of whack?
Why do I fear letting anyone see how completely UN-balanced I feel on the inside?
Because this is not meant to be a competition... nor was it in my workout.
It was a strength and balance challenge to measure improvement.
And that is a new perspective I need to grasp.
I am UN-balanced much of the time.
It is the imperfect, never finished... but ever striving, me.
And #theTrainer is patient as I try again each new day.
He does not spring this test on me to cause me harm or over work my emotions. But rather, He wants me to live the best life possible... strong, stable and balanced.
And if I never take the challenge to step back and see where I lack, then I will be less able to know more what I need Him for!
Maybe it's time for me to ask!
#theTrainer will never give me a challenge, without being right there to catch me.
I will trust Him.
He knows how strong you really are...