Today, I write with tears of misunderstanding.
Now the Lord said to Moses:
“Go up into this Mount Abarim,
and see the land which I have given to the children of Israel.
And when you have seen it, you also shall be gathered to your people,
as Aaron your brother was gathered.
For in the Wilderness of Zin, during the strife of the congregation,
you rebelled against My command to hallow Me
at the waters before their eyes.”
Numbers 27:12-14 (NKJV)
When God says that Moses rebelled to hallow God...
it meant that he did not show the people God's holiness.
It was a time when the people were without water.
And they "contented with Moses"... they opposed him,
they argued and complained... again.
They blamed him for leading them out of Egypt to a place to die.
So he went before God, pleading for them.
And God instructed Moses to speak to the rock to bring forth water.
God wanted to show His power, His provision...
through Moses, to the people
But when Moses and Aaron stood at the rock, before the people, he said,
“Hear now, you rebels!
Must we bring water for you out of this rock?”
Then Moses lifted his hand and struck the rock twice with his rod;
and water came out abundantly, and the congregation and their animals drank.
This is the first, and only time, I recall Moses seeming to shout at them.
And it is only because of the exclamation point that I say so.
I do not know that for a fact, because I was not a witness.
But he seems to finally lose his temper and strikes the rock... twice,
rather than speaking to it as he was commanded by God.
He and Aaron seemingly feel frustrated that these,
now grown children, of the original congregation led out of Egypt.
And for this act... God tells him, that he will not enter the promised land.
...during the strife of the congregation,
you rebelled against My command
to hallow Me at the waters before their eyes.
And strange as it may seem, that truly brings me to tears.
This man, who is far holier than me...
who has held his temper, his words of complaint, and has been faithful to a fault, reacts one time poorly to a people, who... to me, completely deserve it.
And he is kept from the place he has sought for nearly 40 years.
It seems so out of balance.
But our God is not of this world.
His ways are not our ways... they are higher.
His thoughts are not our thoughts... they are higher.
And He simply does not pile up all of our good, next to all of our bad
and look at it on a scale to see if one outweighs the other...
handing out prizes in the end.
He is completely just and fair...
a judge who stays holy and sovereign.
God gave a command... to be followed... period.
Maybe it is the claim Moses made,
Must we bring water for you...
that takes the glory from our God,
and somehow gives it over to Moses and Aaron.
Shifting without certain intention, in the minds of the people,
who is really bringing the water from the rock.
That to be certain was not God's command.
God wanted to show the children of the original congregation...
this new generation, that He, indeed was their God and Provider!
Our God is holy and sovereign.
He can do all miracles, powerful and mighty...
with only a word.
That is what I have come to realize that God wanted to show.
And while my tears continue to fall for Moses,
who will die outside the promised land,
I do realize that he surely was faithful
and will enter a heavenly realm much more amazing instead.
Word of God... train me, today...
to trust Your sovereign word,
to only and always give You glory for all things.
Or who has first given to Him that it would be paid back to Him?
For from Him... all things originate
and through Him... all things live and exist
and to Him are all things...directed.
To Him be glory and honor forever!
Romans 11:35-36 (AMP)
from my heart...
I write as an overflow... an expression of my true love for God and with a deep desire to encourage others in their day to day lives. For we can only find peace, joy, and satisfaction when we yield to the One who yielded His life for us.